blah. I love that word, it seems to express so much, i'm feeling blah, instantly everyone knows exactly what you're talking about. Right now i am most definitely blah. As per bloody usual i am feeling sorry for myself, more over i'm actually angry at myself, and more specifically my genetics. I have depression, which went undiagnosed for some time what bums me most about this fact is that my last year of high school might have been different if this wasn't the case. That was the year i really started to change, i skipped parties and hang outs because i could barely move out of bed, i had the massive blowout with my dad and floated half the year away in a trance. Then all of sudden high school was over and all the people i had seen everyday for six years disappeared and now, i just feel lonely. I have my friends but i think to my brother's 21st and Jenna's and i feel sad. Mum keeps asking me about my 21st, how can i tell her i don't want to celebrate it because i doubt very many people would actually come? that's what happens when you are a lonely miserable person. other people let you be it.
Listening to: Rent Soundtrack- Out Tonight- Rosario Dawson
Eating: frosted flakes
Thinking about: what else sadie can do in my short story
Watching: psych season one *i HEART Dule Hill*
Wearing: Angel pj bottoms and white singlet top
Reading: The Curse of the Spellmans (for funsies), Critical Analysis of Singin In The Rain (Uni-Cinema Studies), and a whole bunch of stuff for History and English
Drinking: Pepsi Max of course
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