Life: An Update...

Much has changed over these last months, my mother moved in with her boyfriend...in Sydney. My cousin moved in with me, i dumped my boyfriend, started talking with my dad again before he had a heart attack and two heart operations, lucky number three coming up soon! I still work as an OCD Sales girl at Tony Bianco and i'm still rattling as i walk thanks to my pills, but in related news i am what my doctor assures me is 'normal' as in i finally have my depression under control, as well as my moods. So here's my question; if this is what normal feels like why the hell did i want it so bad? Right now i can't really complain about my life; great house and roommate, courses at uni that i quite literally love; likewise my tutors. I have friends in my class and for once my life has some semblance of balance. My brother has his life settled and he is living with his girlfriend and in an apprenticeship. I have two stepsisters who adore me and send pictures and emails every week. Even my relationship with Dad is going swimmingly, last week he bought me a car which i have tentatively named Shermer. I have an adorable kitten called Tabitha and have my routine down. So why do i feel so...unfulfilled? I guess i thought once i had everything under control i would see everything differently; that my friends would notice that i'm smiling more and just in general happier but life really doesn't work that way. I don't know what i should do to fix this or if you can even fix it all...any suggestions???